Ready to Change

 I was already completely spent. I didn't want to deal with anything. I had Tristan's graduation coming up, and I just couldn’t do life at all at that moment. So, what did I do? I called K. I couldn’t think straight, let alone try and have a conversation like that when I was so... I couldn’t talk. I was crying, and I wasn’t making any sense.

But that somehow got me on the phone with my brother, Mizzle. He started filling me in on everything that was going on. Which was a fucking lot, bro. Like, I had no idea. Aunt Robin almost died. From meds that weren’t checked before they gave them to her, her kidneys were shutting down, she turned grey, and she ended up on dialysis. Kevin and Corey let everything get turned off, and the car almost got repoed. Adam used everything he had, including his business, to dig Aunt Robin out before she got out of the hospital.

And who could blame him? After a month of being in the hospital, after almost dying and having nothing? I couldn’t, and I'm thankful for him. But it put him in a bad spot.

After talking to him, I called Aunt Robin. I heard it all from her, and I could feel how much she was pulling me to her. I said it. I told her I was coming, that after the boy's graduation, I was leaving. Just a week, that’s all. I could wait one more week. I got this.

Fuck, was I not even close to ready for any of what was about to come my way. Sitting here in the truck, six hours from the woman I'm changing everything in my life for. No, let me correct that: the woman who gave me the strength to be brave enough to change my life.